I forgot I used to blog.

Oh HEY everyone. I forgot that I used to do this thing called blogging. Actually I didn't forget, I remembered I just never know what to write about. Sike I always know what to write I just don't know how to say it...SIKE again I'm just really lazy.
ANYWAYS, its been quite a few months since I've last blogged, and so so so much has happened that I wouldn't even know where to start. I think I've blogged before about things that I've learned, actually I'm 95.8% sure I have so YOLO I'm gonna do it again because I've learned a lot lately. Also I apologize for saying YOLO....hahaha no I don't. 
Okay moving on.
Things I've learned (both serious and not)

1. Life is better when you paint your nails. Sorry boys, this probably doesn't apply to you, but it is. Like for real give me some nail polish (preferably pink) and I own this place.
2. Friends is one of the greatest TV shows ever made. And I am a lot like Phoebe. "Phoebe...that's a great name." "You like that? You should hear my phone number!" DEAD.
3. (Insert cheesy quote) "If you have good thoughts they will shine out of your face like sunbeams and you will always look lovely." I mean, lets be real, we all know that I have really great looks anyways, but I'm starting to realize a lot more lately that being happy is a REALLY attractive quality. And it makes life SO much better. 
4. I have the greatest parents in the world. 99% of the time I am the world's biggest spoiled brat and I often question how I came from two amazing and saint like parents, but nonetheless I could not be more grateful for the parents that I have. If I have any goal in life, besides to marry Scott Disick, its to be like my parents. Words cannot even come close to explaining how selfless and how truly amazing my mom and dad are. They are constantly showing me that there really are good people left in this world.
5. Courtney is the best little sister ever, and the more time I spend away from her, the more I realize how much of an impact this girl has had on my life. She is always teaching me something, even if she doesn't realize it. She's a great example of who I want to be, even though she may be younger than I am.
6. I look better with dark hair. And no I don't look like Snow White....yet.
7. I am completely in love with Mumford and Sons. And Bob Dylan. And Coldplay. And myself. Sue me. 
8. I've been blessed with the most amazing friends. Seriously. They are always bailing me out of sticky situations. Like when I leave my house keys at home in the Tri...twice. Or when I have to take my car in to the shop and I don't want to be stuck there so they volunteer to come save me. Or when I want to cry and they give me the best advice, and then eat ice cream and watch chick flicks and Vampire Diaries with me. I couldn't even imagine where I would be in my life right now without my best friends.
9. My vocab has become really ghetto lately, and it is awesome. FURREAL DOE. PS sawry I'm ratchet.
10. Sometimes growing up can be the pits, and sometimes its like, really really awesome. Like when you live at home and you eat ice cream straight up outta the carton and then your mom may or may not yell at you (she does) and then you're like "uhhh I just wanted some ice cream" and then it gets really awkward, well living on your own is great because you don't have any one to yell at you for eating ice cream out of the carton. Or for having massive amounts of candy for breakfast. And then when you go home you can have the really good nutritious meals that your parents think you've been eating all along when really you haven't been.

And to end this really pointless blog, I would just like to throw out there that life is so much better than we think it is. I haven't turned into some big philosophical human being or anything, I've just realized for myself how great life is. I've been trying really hard not to let anything deter my path or my way of thinking, because I know how easy it can be to let negative things control us or get in our way. 

SAWRY BUT ITS NOT HAPPENING HERE. Doe. I'm sorry. I had to throw in doe. I love that word.

xoxo.

Okay well brownie points to you for reading this. You rock.

a lot to do about nothing.

I'm gonna try not to make this blog bitter or depressing so hopefully it can turn out to be funny and how I have pictured it in my head. Is it weird that when I'm bored and I think about blogging that I start to name off or write blogs in my head? I usually forget them by the time that I go to write them down though, so I guess it doesn't really help much. HAHA.

Anyways, so as most of you know (most of you, as in I hope people actually read this...) I moved like a week or so ago, honestly I don't even remember I've lost track of the days, ANYWAYS so I moved like a week or so ago or something like that and I really thought that living on your own would be so perfect and easy, but I must have been on drugs or something because I was pretty much delusional. Don't get me wrong it is pretty great, but let me tell you why its not.

• I'm a scaredy cat, so naturally I would be afraid to live on my own...nuff said.
• Making dinner for one person is kind of the pits, I didn't really even cook at home that much and that was for 4 of us, so now that I have to either cook for myself or starve (starving is not an option because I just love food too much) I have no choice but to cook! But I will say that I've been making some pretty bomb meals. Just call me Chef Sam. Or Becky Home-eccy. HAHA (Dance Moms reference..had too.)
• I don't like cleaning, but I'm not a messy person. Does that even make sense?
• For those of you who have seen Risky Business, the first thing you think of when you think of living alone is sliding through your hallway/kitchen in your underwear because you're parents aren't home. False. That's not real life. Well it might be for some of you...I don't wanna know.
• Also when I do laundry I feel like Cinderella only that's bad because she's the worst Disney Princess ever (just ask Itzel Lucatero) but at home I used to LOVE doing laundry. Like literally I could do it for hours because I'm just that weird, but when I lived in a dorm in Green Bay I hated doing laundry there too! Something about running a household for one person isn't appealing..

Okay so I think that's all the "nagging" that I have to do about living on my own. OH WAIT. I totally forgot one that's super important. I HAVENT SEEN ANY HOT GUYS AROUND HERE. Wasn't that like, a requirement for me to move? How did that slip by my careful eye? I have been running an awful awful lot lately, I've probably put on more miles on my beloved running shoes these last 3 days then I have the last 3 months, it happens where you're bored and frustrated and lonely and mad, but I won't go there on something like this because A. I'm better than that and B. I once had a cheer coach that always told us "classy not trashy, we want to be Posh not Britney." So that's like my life motto now, but I still love Britney Spears so whatevs, would you hold it against me? Hahaha I seriously need a life. I have never been so excited for school to start in my entire life. Ever. Ever. Ever. Ever. Annnddd that's a lot of evers. Okay so back to my running a ton story, I live literally right by the mall, if you know me at all, you know that's bad, especially since there's a Forever 21. That's like suicide. Anyways, so I've been running by the mall because obviously there's a lot of people by the mall and I get scared running where there isn't a lot of people because I live by a lot of fields too and fields are  the perfect places to hide bodies of 20 year old girls. I'm not crazy, I just watch a lot of tv. Anyways, back to my story for the 3rd time, I run by the mall a lot, which allows me to people watch like crazy, which also allows me to scope out hot boys, like the two that were riding their bikes today when I was running. Too bad I didn't talk to them. Maybe tomorrow I'll have to pretend to sprain my ankle or something good like that. Also I ate a couple bugs today on my run and it was super super nasty. I don't reccommend it. They don't taste like chocolate, I promise!

So pretty much this blog is pointless, like alllll my other ones, but hey, I'm the writer so I call the shots here!
Thanks for reading!
xoxo.

Thank goodness for best friends.

So I don't really blog too much about mushy gushy kinds of things, but lately I have been extremely grateful for the very best friends and family that I have! So I definitely want to brag about them, obviously.
I love my family and my friends so much, even though sometimes I don't act like it. For example, yesterday was Mother's day, and my Mother is a saint. Let me tell you, she really is. My mom and my dad drove up here to spend Mother's day with my sister and I, and my mother ended up cleaning and organizing my entire apartment, and taking care of my sick little self while I laid in bed. She is the best mother ever.

Also, I have the best family members ever! They are always there for me, no matter what. Whether its in need of a desperate phone call or text, or someone has to load up a shotgun, they are there. I would be lost without them all!
You know you have the best friends ever when they drive a half hour to come make you dinner when you're lonely, when they drive a half hour to come hang out with you while you're on your death bed, when they stay up way later then they should to talk to you about the boy who broke your heart, and  when they watch sad chick flicks with you and eat ice cream and brownies to help you feel better. I could probably go on forever but I will keep it short because we are currently watching The Bachlorette. I literally have the best friends ever!

Love you all!
xoxo.

The Bucket List.

So I've had a lot of time on my hands lately, that's probably a bad thing because all I do now is just watch TV and think, but anyways, so I've had a lot of time on my hands right? Right. And I've been really bored so my imagination has been running wild, and I've been thinking of all the things that I want to do in my life! I combined them all into a Bucket List (I know its so totally cliche, but I don't really care!) P.s. The Bucket List is a really good movie, super sad though, however totally inspiring.

Okay, so here's my bucket list as of today, I'll probably end up adding more to it eventually! Also, don't judge me, we're all different for a reason.

• Run the Boston Marathon by the time I'm 30!
• Work as a rad tech on the islands of Tonga, Fiji, Samoa, etc, and help with their health care.
• Ruin as many pairs of running shoes as I can from running so much.
• Be in two states at once.
• Meet Nicki Minaj (Obviously with Brett Hogg by my side.)
• Visit Strawberry Fields in Central Park.
• Have a flour fight!
• Help find a cure for cancer.
• Send a letter via owl (preferably Hedwig)
• Meet the Kardashians!
• Move to Hawaii!
• Fully overcome my fear of the ocean.
• Buy a Venus Flytrap and train it to eat everyone I don't like.
• Spend an entire day holding up a "free hugs" sign in a big city.
• Date someone who loves bowties as much as I do.
• Read 365 books in a year.
• See how many balloons it takes to lift myself up off the ground.
• Go to Barcelona and Madrid and work at the M.D. Anderson Cancer Center there.
• Make "fetch" happen.
• Visit Westminister Abbey.
• Steal a Wall Street sign and hang it in my room.

So right meow that's all I can think of, but I'm sure I will have a much longer list soon!

Thanks for reading!
xoxo.

Spring Break!

I haven't blogged in sooo long, and Stephanie Carlon has been really making me want to blog because she made her blog all cute and it gave me motivation! Thanks Steph!

Anyways, so for spring break, my family and I went to Hawaii! It was SO much fun, I could live there forever! Even if the weather is bad there, its still perfect (if that makes sense.) We did so much, but I wish we would have been there longer because there is still so much that we didn't do, but I'm super glad we went!

I'm gonna post some pictures, and then I'll explain them!

So, as you can so obviously tell, Courtney is like 10x darker than me, so save it because I already know! Anyways, we went parasailing, which was probably the scariest thing I've ever done in my whole 20 years of living. I'm not afraid of heights, however I am terrified of the ocean, and when you're swinging around 800 feet above the deep blue, it's a little frightening. Okay, maybe it was worse than that. I almost had a panic attack up there, even ask Courtney. She was laughing at me! I didn't want to get dipped because like I said, I hate the ocean, but my wonderful parents who were on the boat when we were in the air told the people running the show that we wanted to get dipped. A lot. So who got dunked in the ocean up to their necks? Courtney and I did! And not only was it a dunk, but it was like a "hey let's watch paint dry while you're sitting in the middle of the ocean with your feet dangling in the water for a shark to come eat them off!" kind of dunk. So scary and I'm never doing it again.


One of my favorite things that we did in Hawaii was go see Pearl Harbor and the Punchbowl. I'm kind of a nerdy nerd and I love history, so it was super cool to me. It really made me want to work on a Navy Base Hospital!


Of course one of the most beautiful things we saw was the Laie Hawaii Temple at BYU Hawaii. So beautiful! When you go to the Polynesian Cultural Center, you can take a tram tour to visit BYUH and the Temple, which I thought was kind of neat.


Let's see, all over Waikiki Beach there's statues of different Kings and Queens, like literally all over. People go and put flower leis on them for some reason, but its kind of cool too. And Ashley Knode, if you're reading this, the beach is that way!! :)


OH! I almost forgot! I swam with dolphins!!! We went to this place called Sealife Park and we got to swim with dolphins! I'm not gonna lie that was also really terrifying because when all you can see in the tank is the fin, it kind of looks like a shark. I almost didn't even do it, Courtney and my parents made me. The instructor lady asked me if I was nervous because I was basically the color of a ghost because I was so scared, but little did she know I'm always the color of a ghost! It was really fun though, and the dolphins feel all slimy and rubbery! I got to kiss them too, which was a cool experience! The lady had us swim out to the middle of the tank and then they have the dolphins swim underneath you and I almost pooped my pants, it was so scary! As if you can't tell, I'm kind of a baby. No big deal.


Climbing Diamond Head was also really fun. I love stuff like that! There's a lot of steps you have to climb but in my opinion that hike was easier than climbing Badger! Plus the scenery was way better too.


We didn't make it to Haunama Bay to go snorkeling, however we did go snorkeling in a reef tank at our hotel that was just full of fish which was fine by me because I hate fish and sharks and turtles and eels and basically anything else that can kill me in the ocean. I'm actually really glad we didn't go snorkeling in a Bay area or whatever because I almost had a heart attack in the reef tank with ONLY fish, so my heart probably would have stopped in the actual ocean.


So that's pretty much it, I mean we did a lot more than all of that but I realized this post is getting kind of long. So sorry to anyone who's reading! I will tell you guys that I'm allergic to mosquito bites, and I got like 10 or 11 of them in Hawaii, and since I'm allergic usually they swell up and turn purple, but these ones decided to swell and blister so I literally looked like I had a disease. It was awesome.


Okay, thanks for reading!
XOXO.

Change of Perspective.

So I haven't blogged at all for 2012 yet and I've been really wanting too, like really bad, but I've either been busy, napping, or I didn't really have any great ideas. WELL, tonight I was at Walmart with my parents, and my dad and I were walking down some aisle, and we saw these two girls making fun of this lady that worked there who was a little bigger around. It seriously broke my heart to hear and to watch these two girls make fun of someone like that.

Now I know I'm not perfect and I'm not saying that I've never judged anyone by what they look like, or what they're wearing, etc, but I can honestly say that I've definitely been trying to truly look for  the good in others. How can you judge someone when you don't know their situation?
It reminded me of an article I had to read recently for one of my english classes about this 400 lb. man who had hated his life, and his coworkers always made fun of him for his weight, but the man had said that nobody had asked him why he was really 400 lbs. No one had considered the levels he went to try to lose weight. No one had known how hard his life had been, or that his weight condition was hereditary. They only judged him by his weight, and his weight alone.

I guess I'm kind of rambling on now, but I just really wanted to get that off my chest. It's not even weight issues that have been bugging me lately, its seeing anyone in need. Why don't we help out more people? Is it because we're too busy? Or we just don't want too?  Why don't we stand up for people like the Walmart employee? Are we too afraid? Maybe we shouldn't be. Maybe we should stand up for what we know is right.

Okay, sorry for the heavy, but I just really really really needed to say that.
Thanks for reading!
xoxo.

The True Meaning.

Hello fellow readers! It has been quite some time since I've blogged last. I guess I just got caught up with school and work and life and whatnot, also I don't really ever have anything important to say, haha. But I do feel like this is important, so I'm going to say it. Bear (bare? i don't really know actually) with me please, this could get kind of emotional.

So Christmas is in 6 days or something close like that, and I haven't really "felt" like its Christmas, given I've been listening to Christmas music since July, so that wasn't really new or anything. I've always loved the season. I love the decorations, and the lights. Not to mention the holiday baking because let's be real, I love eating. Back to what I was originally saying, I haven't really felt like its Christmas, or close to it, and its honestly been kind of stumping me. I mean, I've done everything Christmas-y, so why doesn't it feel like Christmas? And then, it HIT ME! Okay, so I've been going to church since you know, I was born, and I've been raised LDS my entire life. I know the reason for the season, and that is most importantly Jesus and his birth. Somehow, I've let it not entirely slip my mind this season, but it hasn't been my first priority like I know that it should be. I teach a primary class at church on sundays for the 4/5 year olds, and I just adore them. Seriously, the most precious and eager children you will ever meet. They teach me so much more than I ever could have possibly imagined. Anyways, so our lesson on Sunday was our Christmas lesson, and it warmed my heart to see that they knew what Christmas was all about. To hear them shout out their answers when I asked if they knew what the true meaning of Christmas was, was incredible. To hear and to see these little children know this was such an eye opener.

Christmas these days is all commercialized. Its all about presents, and Santa. People forget the true meaning. These children have helped me to remember what the season is all about. Giving, loving one another, and most importantly, our Savior.

Giving and service is one of my biggest goals. I feel like I don't serve enough. I've been looking for charities to help, and for organizations to volunteer for, but I haven't been trying hard enough. But that's my goal, to get involved, and to serve. I think tomorrow I will collect some canned food and go to the Salvation Army, or maybe I will use my paycheck to go pick out some presents for the children in the shelters or hospital. I'm not entirely sure what I am going to do yet, but I know I am going to do something.

Thanks for reading, and I'm sorry for the heavy. If you get anything out of this blog, I would hope that it would be to remember the TRUE meaning of Christmas. Have a very merry Christmas!
Love, always.
xoxo.